Yesterday I was finishing getting our pool ready for the grandkids.  In so doing I got the circulation pump running so I could vacuum the floor of the pool.  The circulation is only working at about 50% capacity so the vacuum wouldn’t do its job.  These types of thing make me want to hide and run.  I’ve never been good with mechanical things and here is a major one with grandkids waiting!

Today I awoke early and started my devotions.  The sense of doom was clouding the day as it has been for several days.  I know that today is the day I will have the critical conversation needing to take place.  I was attributing the sense to it.  As I did the lessons for Experiencing God and 7-Pillars following my devotions I knew a lot more about the sense of doom.  7-Pillars lesson was all about how I see myself, confessing it and asking God to forgive me for not seeing the strength in me He’s given.  Secondly, Experiencing God’s lesson was about trusting what God shows me to do and obeying it.  I was allowing Satan to take the struggles of yesterday’s pool issues and my lack of skills to beat myself up for not being the learned man that would make my dad proud.  God wanted me to see the skills I have as His gift.  I can ask others to help me with the skills I lack, but He wants me to use the skills He gave me to address what He shows me to do with them.  The doom lifted and I see myself as God’s creation again.  Boy, isn’t living one day at a time a problem when we isolate ourselves and believe the lies in our minds? This is a habit I need to address often.

Today I will do what God has asked me to do and I will do it with the assurance that He gives the words and wisdom at the right time as well as the strength to complete the task.  Along with this, the problems I can’t fix I will ask for help from those with the skills and not beat myself up for my lack thereof.  We need each other to complete one another.  God is doing a good job as always awakening me to Him and others.