Sometimes one just needs to stand back and see all that God is doing.  Today, this morning, I am doing this and I am simply in awe.  To think that God is connected to all mankind in such intimate detail–it’s amazing.  Yesterday my younger brother called and came over to begin helping me assemble the greenhouse I purchased last spring.  I was about to put the kit on Craigslist because it wasn’t going to work having me do it.  It is so complicated.  I helped him and marveled at watching him read the manual and put the right pieces together throughout the day.  We will likely finish it today.  God certainly didn’t wire me with the gifts He gave my brother.  These are the same gifts my dad would beat me up verbally for not having all through my childhood.  As old as I am I easily admire the gifts today.  I know I have my own but….

Last night’s 7-Pillars class was tough but good.  There has been so much denial in me regarding the past I lived through.  It has fed me so many “limbic lies”.  The work of the present lessons is to address these lies.  The idea of taking the picture of me when I was a young child and look at it at least a couple times a day to remind me that little guy is still worth God’s attention today, is one solid example.  Also, the fact that I’m even admitting this is an issue for me is another one.  It’s embarrassing thinking someone like my brother would see me looking at it.  God reminded me this morning that He will and does heal when I do my part.  So, I’m biting the bullet and looking at the picture!

The other thing that’s somewhat ironic is that I’m teaching the Celebrate Recovery lesson tonight and it is–DENIAL.  God is just driving all of this home right now.  I am ready though, I believe.  This time I’m not running from the help–I’m facing it.  Praise the Lord!