There is so much in scripture I’ve read over the years that is only now starting to speak to me. When we begin to awaken to the Gift of the Spirit given to us by Jesus Christ when we accept Him into our lives, we can know and discern so much. Today in Ephesians 2 Paul is writing about our created purpose. When I was a child I would have fleeting moments of doing important things for God someday as I would live for Him. But, as life continued through my childhood I grew into only wanting to get through my years at home so I COULD live for God. Life was consumed by living for dad and enduring life with my abusive brother. In all of that I almost lost entirely the trust in living for God. I wanted so much for dad to see me as worthwhile even though I wasn’t good at the things he was. I learned to try and this transferred to trying to earn God’s favor.
Today, in reading Ephesians 1 & 2, I see again how God’s Spirit is opening the “eyes of my heart”. Chapter 1 vs 18 says, “By having the eyes of your heart flooded with light so that you can know and understand the hope to which He has called you and how rich is His glorious inheritance in the saints.” I know I can’t go back in time to shift my efforts then into my surrender so I could live with a greater assurance, but I am so grateful to be at a place today where I no longer crave to know God loves me and that what I do is completing His purpose for me being created. The “eyes of my heart” see God in His splendor and receive the GIFT of LOVE and ACCEPTANCE He offers.