Today’s devotional time was hugely sentimental for me. The devotional message was all about God using our adversity as a blessing and this will come about in His timing. Well, when I got to my Bible reading I was reading Isaiah 30 when I came upon the verses 19-26. There I had marked this section and wrote: “This entire section is like a promise from God to me for Celebrate Recovery. Today I told my story to my sponsor–Carol.” This was dated 6/23/08. (In September of 2008 we kicked off our Celebrate Recovery ministry.) Carol was the only one in our leadership team qualified to be a sponsor as the rest of us were going through our first step study with her leading. We had permission at that time to let our sponsor be a woman until we had qualified men to sponsor one another. So many times I’d call her during those days, months and confess my struggles and weep thinking what a mess I am. She’d always remind me of the voices I had been listening to and who the speaker of them was. Then she’d remind me of God’s promises and I’d weep more. I called her before writing this to thank her once again for being God’s sponsor for me during my most vulnerable years in recovery.

This passage goes on to say, “He will send you rain for the seed you sow in the ground and the food that comes from the land will be rich and plentiful….” Our ministry has been in operation for 16 years now and along with it we have added the restoration classes and now the counseling services. God has truly taken my adversity and made it a blessing. How grateful I am to get to be a tool in God’s Workshop.

Yesterday afternoon before counseling sessions began I met with a gentleman who is interested in joining our counseling team. He is known by our one counselor who is a retired licensed counselor. She recommended that I meet with him so I did. I was quite impressed. Our team will meet with him hopefully next week to ensure everyone is confirmed that God is the very one bringing about his participation with this ministry.

I mentioned in Monday’s entry about issues I needed to face. Tuesday I wrote that most of them were taken care of and God had answered prayer. The one issue most troubling to me has yet to be resolved and this morning I needed to face it and work through it with Jesus. It centers around a recent car purchase we made. Turns out the vehicle is not what we thought. I won’t go into all of the details, but when something like this comes about, I panic inside and beat myself up royally for being so “stupid”. I’ve talked to the dealership and they are looking for the “right” vehicle and we will then make all of this work.

This morning as I journaled to Jesus I had to surrender my fears/anxiety to Him. I thought I was old enough that I wouldn’t be doing these things anymore. But, here I am caught in what feels like a huge one once again. As I asked Jesus what He wanted me to know while I was journaling, He asked if I believe He is Lord of all? Of course, I do so He then asked if my Lord of all could handle this issue? Well, yes, if this were for someone else, I would already know this. But, for me–knowing how “stupid” I am, I had my eyes on me rather than Jesus.

At this moment of writing, I’m now praising Jesus for what He is doing and will do. Is my anxiety gone? Well, it wants to flare, but I keep reminding myself that my Lord of all is so much more than this issue. I smile as I write this for Jesus is my LORD OF ALL!

Well, God never disappoints as I keep my focus solely on Him. The concerns of yesterday early morning are mostly in the past. The day resolved some of Monday’s troubles and the singing event went nicely with The Holy Spirit very present. Sometimes I think the language of God’s Spirit for us in the flesh is music. Songs do bring me immediately to the throne of Grace and I sense God’s Spirit’s Presence. I love this!

Today seems like a more “normal” day. I’m headed out to pick blackberries in a few more minutes. I have to wait until there is enough sunlight so I can see them. It is so much easier to pick them when the cool of the morning is with us. Our days are in the low 100’s right now so picking in the afternoon is out of the question!

Trust and Obey, for there’s no other way to be happy in Jesus, but to TRUST AND OBEY! These lyrics from the old hymn, Trust and Obey, are always the right thing to do. I often have these words go through my mind always with their tune accompanying them. Just like right now, I surrender my anxious thoughts to Jesus and turn my thoughts to TRUST and then, OBEY.

Satan is not going to win. I start with this statement because he just isn’t! Yesterday was going to be (to me) a nice catch-up day. I did get the things caught up I wanted to, but in addition to them, it seemed a wheelbarrow load of issues were added to it (and some were quite large ones).

This morning I awoke early with all that today holds on my mind–several counseling appointments, our quartet singing for an hour for a luncheon, and all of the things which went wrong yesterday. In all honesty, I don’t know how in the world the things will get straightened out, but I know God does.

As I was finishing my complaining while I journaled, I asked Jesus what He wanted me to know for today? His response pointed out that He could see my troubled soul. He reminded me that my role is to trust and then obey. Later in my devotions I saw at the bottom of my prayer list the words: Praise Jesus for all things. It was then that I truly saw my lack of trust so I just stopped and thanked Jesus for the way He is going to use yesterday’s torments as tools for growing all that are involved in it. For this I PRAISE HIM!

I have no idea what today will develop into, but I do know that our God is bigger than any obstacle Satan wants to throw our way. I look forward to being a better follower of Jesus as a result of this.

We are home and I’m very glad to be. The weekend, fast and furious, was a wonderful event and I’m so glad we could be present for it. However, I do love being home during the summer, gardening time. I immediately picked a gallon of blackberries after I had unpacked and changed into the gardening attire! Today I can get the rest of the yard and garden back into shape.

There is a young man who I met about 4 years back and he comes faithfully to Celebrate Recovery and for the past year, to counseling. He struggles with depression and an addiction and all of it is severe right at this point in time. He doesn’t want to take meds for it, but…. On the plane ride home I had taken a older book to read, Chicken Soup for the Soul, In looking through the index of it I found a few fitting titles I read thinking they would be beneficial for him. I almost cried on the plane just reading them and thinking of him. Well, this week I’m going to share them with him. I know that God uses all things for HIs Glory if we will submit them to Him and let ourselves be vulnerable to whatever is crippling us at the moment. So, I’m praying for a breakthrough for this young man. If you would like to join me, I’d sure appreciate it. His counseling time is 5:00 pm (MDT) on Wednesdays.

God is a miracle-working GOD. I’m praying this might be the right time for one of them.

The wedding was the most spiritual one I’ve ever attended. Gods presence was so very real. We are half-way home waiting now in the airport for the last leg. God is always amazing!

Today is another day where God’s Great Glory has revealed itself. I wish I could tell the full story of God’s Work with this relationship between my granddaughter and her fiancé who will be her husband in just 3.5 more hours. It is such a touching one of God’s Love and Grace at work. It makes today’s wedding another miracle of Christ’s constant love at work! What a joy it is to be grandpa in this!

Today’s devotional message was one I’d like to send to everyone who comes to Celebrate Recovery and to the counseling room. It is a message of God’s Strength to use all of our dark past and darkest moments in life for His Glorious Kingdom Work. While we are in the midst of these dark times, we cannot see the Light of Jesus around us, but the faith others have will sustain us until we can see Christ’s Light shining around and within us. I have lived through my own dark times and now it is my turn to carry the faith for others who need someone to do this for them.

What a privilege it is to be part of God’s Kingdom Work. It all starts when we invite His Son Jesus into our lives. He instantly becomes our Savior and He will stay with us until He is our Lord of all! Oh how I love HIM!

Here we are in OKC. The excitement is everywhere with the wedding tomorrow morning and the rehearsal only 2.5 hours away. It was so nice to see how God has been showing Himself as we listened to my daughter Amber yesterday afternoon. So many details have come together with friends offering to do this and that when she was afraid to ask. Our granddaughter Julia and her fiancé are such a great couple about to become man and wife.

There are many ways we can be of assistance today and just support so this is the goal and my submission to God as I began my day not so long ago. God already reminded me that it is well with my soul, not when I am a good helper, but when I am a good helper who has submitted myself to God’s Holy Spirit within me. I want more than anything to be a vessel of honor today letting Christ shine through me. I love our God and there is nothing like serving Him.

Today we head to Oklahoma City. I’ve never flown with such a large family group before. There will be 8 of us on the same flight. The other 3 coming from here will be about 1.5 hours behind us. We are all staying in a large home our daughter has rented through airbnb.

God never ceases to amaze me. The one appointment I had yesterday is a couple seeking help with their communication. As it turns out, this is a secondary problem with the primary one being the wife’s need for her own help. She was severely abused as a young child. Her husband is aware of this but he was clueless to abuse’s effect on the victim. They will be gone on vacation for a couple of weeks so their assignment is just to practice the skills for communication to understand rather than to “win”. When we return the wife will start coming for her own help.

Over and over I see people who are trying their hardest to hide what they are so ashamed of. I know this so well! God provides opportunity for us to take a risk in stepping into a sharing moment that opens a flood gate. That took place yesterday. It is so humbling and confirming to get to be part of God’s work in one’s life. He so wonderfully placed these people in my own life and now I get to return the favor. He never ceases to use all things if we only “let Him have His way with thee”. (Old hymn– His Way with Thee)

Today we are preparing to be gone for the next four days for our granddaughter’s wedding in Oklahoma City. Just because it is the dead of summer and gardening is at its peak, I have lots on my mind to remember to do this last day. So, when I got up and headed out to start the sprinklers on a portion of the garden I suddenly remembered I needed to check in for our seats on the airline. I quickly called up the app on my phone and completed this. I then had a flood of things I need to do today coming to mind. As I sat down to have my devotional time I was reminded that today is just a day and the same God who organized the universe will oversee any details for this day. I can relax. So, I simply made a list of what’s on my mind and all is good.

As I was going through my time with God I again surrendered myself to The Holy Spirit. It was then that I realized just how much He had already done making today so doable. Wednesday’s are a full counseling day. Last week when I was alerting the evening ones that I’d need to take this evening off for prep, there was no problem. In fact the last group finished last week leaving the 7-8:00 pm block free. The two before this couldn’t make their appointments tonight anyway. During the day yesterday, the other appointments needed to cancel today so I only have one appointment early afternoon and I’m then done. I just had to thank God for His kind thoroughness!

Living for Jesus has its moments. But, I’m finding that my greatest hindrance is me. When I am fully surrendered and remembering to stay this way, I am free–free of the bondage I put in my own way, not realizing until later, to stop–Let God take the lead. Today I want to keep this in front of me all day long.