Today is starting with my spirit troubled–no tangible reason, yet God tells me to move into it and do His bidding.  So that is what I am going to do.  I have 7 grandkids starting school today ranging from kindergarten to freshman in high school.  I have two more that started school over a week ago in another state.  Yet, this is the year I will have very little to do with school.  I have not made any new commitments for this coming year except with our state department of ed which won’t happen until later Fall and Winter.  Even that will be a small commitment.  Maybe all of this is what has my spirit in unrest.  I’m not sure what to do with the reality that all this is beginning and I have no tangible attachment to it.  God has taken me into a different area of involvement.

Last night my siblings living in Idaho got together with spouses to say our good-byes to our youngest sis, Polly.  She and her husband Dan are moving to Indiana in Sept. to be with their son’s family there.  Dan is retiring.  The ones of us here have been together for all our adult years.  It is bitter sweet seeing her go.  Even their daughter who lives here is also moving.  They are the ones whose son drowned in early July.  I suppose, as I write all of this, that my spirit is responding to these changes.  I have nothing to do except wish all of them well and let them know I love and support them.  Why does that seem so trite?

I do have much to do today.  We are preparing to have our new year kickoff for Celebrate Recovery in Sept. and I need to organize getting it launched.  The Aslan Ministry has work to be done which I can do.  However, just for a moment I need to reflect on the work of my past.  It seems I need to mourn saying good-by to it.  I know it is the right thing to do but I did love being part of it.  I have left it with no regrets.  I do love what I’m doing now but there aren’t roots deeply grown and I think that’s part of my troubled spirit.  I like deep roots.  I know God has been needing me to better understand having my roots deeply grown into my Trust in Him.  I’ll spend some time fertilizing this area of growth today and in my days ahead.