How can so much happen in a day and yet there is little, if anything, to show for it?  Yesterday I spent the entire morning talking with different ones calling about Celebrate Recovery things:  personal problems to program pieces needing help.  None of the calls were expected and each one was important.  The afternoon came and I went to see my brother in law in the hospital to find he was sent home.  He is not going to be with us much longer I am told.  I went to the house and spent time with his wife and my nieces and nephews present.  Later in the day I got a call from a school district that wants me to work for them for a couple months while the administrator is out of the country on personal matters.  It would be November and December.  I told them yes as those are months with not too much going on that is planned at this point.  It is a 3 day a week commitment.

This morning I felt like I’d betrayed someone as I was having my devotions.  I couldn’t put my finger on it.  It just seemed like I couldn’t focus on the scripture reading and devotional reading.  As I journaled all I could do was hit upon things I should do but….  I then asked God to clarify what all this is about.  Why I waited so long to ask this is its own issue.  His response was immediate.  He reminded me that I’m a new creation.  When I got the call from the school district yesterday afternoon I felt good about being asked.  I said yes to doing it knowing it is short term and part-time during the period.  However, I was feeling guilty for taking an assignment like this.  Not so long ago I would have taken this to keep myself piled high with assignments.  I kept busy and in denial this way to the hurts of my old self.  God told me this morning to rejoice with Him in the assignment.  I can go into it as a new creation, not hiding anything.  That is so freeing!

Even though there is no concrete evidence of anything getting done yesterday, I was able to complete what God had put before me.  The tulips aren’t planted but they can wait.  They will bloom next spring regardless of which day I get them in the ground.