There is something continuously amazing about serving God our Father. One day we have no means of moving forward and then in just a few hours there are decisions to make about which way do we go to move forward? Yesterday’s session with our Aslan board brought about three different possibilities for us. Each one of them has potential and has a green light in front of it. Now we as a board can take the time and reflect with God upon which direction He is taking us. I’m very grateful to be at this juncture. All the board was in complete agreement that we need to move forward with the property. Now it is–which one?
There is something I am learning about being a new creation and living as such. Living as a new creation depends solely on the strength of the Lord. My word, I’ve sung songs about this all my life and have read hundreds of scriptures about this but it has never clicked into place until now. My measuring stick for living as a new creation had always been to make sure my past was hidden and that I didn’t act out from the torment of hiding my past. This new creation was what I was going to go to the grave living. However, there is so much bondage in it. That bondage is what God was wanting to free me from. Now that I’m living on the other side of it, there is some insecurity and yet tremendous security.
I’ve never lived totally dependent on God’s leading in my life until now. I hate to say this, but I did lean on my own understanding contrary to what Proverbs 3:5 says. I was scared to death to risk living with my past fully exposed and for me to be the person I was on the inside living as such to the world around me. The scripture reads we are to: “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” The insecurity I feel is more about the fact that I have never lived with such surrender until now. It’s like when I start a new job and I know I am where I need to be but I don’t even know where to park the car when I arrive. I trust there will be a place to park, but I haven’t driven here before. This insecurity is real, but it is minimal and would never keep me from taking the job. Well, the same is now true for living the life of a new creation. I know where to park, but the job is so new, I don’t know the ones well I’m working with. I realize now that this someone is God my Father. I am learning how amazing He is and I do trust Him. I know He knows me and that He has invited me to live this life fully with Him in complete surrender and confidence. He’s given me His Son as my model and He has given me His Holy Spirit to guide each and every step. Maybe this is like learning to walk all over again. This time however, I’m walking with Jesus and His Holy Team. Amen and Amen.