Well, it happened, we had our step study yesterday during second service and God revealed much. The lesson was on “sponsorship”. I said yesterday that I needed to ponder this some more. There is much to be said about the way the Holy Spirit speaks to us as we listen to others process about their responses to the questions and listening to our own response when it is our turn to share. I was touched that the one I mentioned yesterday that I do daily accountability with called me his sponsor. This affirmation was when the Holy Spirit nudged me saying he was to be my sponsor also. I can open up to him fully and he always has wisdom from God to share. Our struggles don’t need to be alike. God’s help in working through struggles is what is the same.
This morning I was journaling to God about the disarray in our home. We are having some flooring redone and the installation keeps getting delayed. Several weeks ago the delays were about Kathy needing to be sure about the product we were putting down. Now that this is finally settled for her, the installers are having trouble with sickness, etc. With Thanksgiving on Thursday and us hosting it, I stew. Kathy told me yesterday that she was at peace about it and I would have to settle this on my own–smart lady. This morning I took it to God and He reminded me of The Serenity Prayer. In its first paragraph it states, “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.” In thinking this through it became very apparent that I was struggling about things I shouldn’t be changing or trying to–using the “wisdom to know the difference”. It takes Kathy quite a while to anchor a decision about many things. I don’t bother about this because it is her way. However, when our own bedroom and bath are totally disrupted for this long, I want to take charge. So, God was reminding me that I can find peace easily once this work is done. Kathy, on the other hand, needs her time and space to find the same peace for herself. My patience with this is worth years of peace for Kathy. As soon as this was settled in my mind, I was at peace. I don’t like pushing up against deadlines, well, this time I will let it go because this deadline isn’t about me unless I make it that way. I will anchor into the “wisdom that knows the difference” and thank God for showing it to me.
The other thing that God pointed out this morning was that my old self was the one who struggled with butting up against deadlines. My new self still does when its up to me. However, this new self has the ability to use God’s wisdom more fully. It does take some time to stay in my new self. Daily surrender and listening to the Holy Spirit is always critical and so worth it! To God be the glory!