I keep saying that the book of Romans in the Bible has so much for me to learn, understand and live. Today I’m reading the 11th chapter. The 6th vs says: “But if it is by grace, it is no longer conditioned on works or anything men have done. Otherwise grace would no longer be grace.” I have always found much satisfaction from works. Notice I say “I”. I’ve also transferred this into my walk with God. Not so long ago I had to do good works so I’d be considered good. I now know this is not the truth but my inner being is driven to work–do something. God is wanting me now to know that works and grace are diametrically opposed to one another. If I am working to find Grace, I am doing the work for my own ego. God has never told me to do anything but accept His Grace. Somehow I needed the work to gratify the unworthiness factor so I could be worthy of Grace. Jesus Christ did this for me (us).
Now that I’m this far along in my journey and with my recent circumcision of heart, I can see motives for my work I’ve not yet seen. These motives are selfish and pride fulfilling. I enjoy doing work that is good. The problem arises if I am doing the work still to find value rather than to fulfill a day of being God’s committed servant. If I am committed fully to being who God wants–filled with His Grace, I will not only do what is to be done but the one doing the work is reflecting a Spirit of Grace within and for others. These truths of late are awakening me to a reality I’ve needed to find.
As I was journaling this morning and ending with the question I always ask–Father, what do you want me to know from you today? He told me what Christ says in Matthew 11:28-30. “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” He reminded me that the light describing the burden is two kinds of light. The one is the traditional light meaning without much weight. But He also told me that the other light is the brilliance for which I can see Him in the burden as well as others can see Him as I live the burden.
I am going to need to spend some time reflecting on this new understanding. I want to embrace life through God’s Grace and not through my old thinking about work. God is not done with my journey yet and I’m sure He isn’t finished with yours either. To God be the Glory.