God is patient and amazingly so. Yesterday turned out to be a glorious day. I was so glad to be back with the team–even though they are all new members except for one. Just to connect with the work of school reform felt confirming all day long. God’s message yesterday of simply doing my part in whatever assignment He gives me is staying with me. I truly need to keep it in the forefront of my mind too.
As I reflected on the troublesome week I’ve had I realize just how much I had move from being a “servant” (only doing what I was brought into projects to do), to “taking charge” of whatever I was doing. God hadn’t placed me in that position, I had. I was wanting to complete His Work my way. I needed to confess this and then move back into the servant seat. Now that I am there I can easily see doing the work.
The wake up I had this morning was important. I already realized I wanted to be a servant completing God’s Kingdom Work. I’ve always wanted to do this. Little did I know though how much that crippled spirit of mine was still needing “importance”. If I take charge and get things done my way it will be done so much better. To be honest with you I didn’t think this outright, but in the back of my mind I was wanting to have the ones leading realize the work they were doing wasn’t going to be as profitable unless they did what I was suggesting. This is not what God was wanting me doing. He nicely informed me that He would be taking charge of what He wanted them doing. I needed to support this with the assignments given to me. My spirit is maturing, but it still has that selfish need in it.
The peace that passeth all understanding is rooted now. I’m somewhat disgusted with myself for getting caught up in this. I don’t think the ones leading the work even knew I felt this way, but God did and He nicely had me awaken to it. Well, He and I are back being the team He wanted–He is in CHARGE. To God be ALL Glory.