God is really wanting me to understand and believe something I’ve hoped all my life, but not had a tangible belief it was real until now. What I’m talking about started in yesterday’s post. Luke 16:13 says “we cannot serve two masters for we will hate the one and love the other….” Most of my life I’ve been trapped in a repeated pattern of struggling with the temptation to briefly use porn as a sedative distracting me from the memories of my past or just to get rid of the temptation. However, when I was in high school I was given the verse I Corinthians 10:13 where God promises to give me the strength to endure a temptation. It says He won’t allow a temptation bigger than I can handle. I’ve craved all my life for this to be true for me. Many times it has been but every once in a while–it is not. I knew I was the weak one and I used to think I was the “step child who wasn’t cared about”.
Now that I know Christ is in command of my brain and lives there along with The Holy Spirit, I am better understanding that the power to resist comes from this grounding. I’ve learned my need to tell my temptation at the time it comes–especially the ones which I tend to cave into. I was journaling about this step and God said something like, “Now that you are better grounded in ‘renewing your mind each day’ go ahead and make the call when temptation arrives. You know Christ lives in your heart and mind so let Him now enact Our Power as you obey Our command to you.”
I’m going to be taking this step as temptations come. I’ve already had the conversation with my accountability person. These times of attack are clever in that Satan doesn’t want me free each day. However, I now know that God’s promises are as real for me as I’ve known they are for each of you. I thank God for His patient endurance with me as I learn to more fully believe in His promises.