I’m home!  Yeah.  It was a very worthwhile working trip, but I’m always so glad to get home and sleep in my own bed.

God is really halting the forward motion of my journey right now so I can finally get a much firmer grasp of spirit-living.  I can really see why He wanted me to journal to The Holy Spirit for awhile.  I need to do this so I could separate my sinful flesh and my spirit from The Holy Spirit’s pureness and love.  When I accepted Christ into my heart so many years ago, God made me a new creation.  I could never grasp the truth of this for me because my flesh was so badly tarnished.  The sexual abuse had left me thinking my flesh was black through and through.  Dad’s beatings and emotional abuse left me believing there was no value to this fleshly being anyway.  Satan had me believing all through life that I had to hide this past or the world would never allow me to participate in it as I longed to do so in the educational world.

Now, I’m truly beginning to see the truth instead of these lies.  First and foremost, the new creation God gave me was my spiritual being.  It was now new and it was eternal as He’d created it to be way back with Adam.  Yes, my flesh was all those things I said in the above paragraph, but that didn’t matter.  The spirit of Earnie was new and it is new.  I’m finally seeing this!  Your spirit is too!  I kept wanting to make my flesh new.  However, all my flesh did was want to hide and go back to the old habits so I could momentarily feel good and then live in the guilt and self-condemnation which followed.  Satan has a sick hold on mankind when we only life in our flesh.

When God tells us He is Love, I’m now seeing I can be too.  My spirit is new and my spirit is loving.  It is in my spirit God is wanting me to operate 24-7.  I’m wanting that too.  This is like a whole-new assignment that is so much clearer than ever before.  I Corinthians 13:12 says: “Now we see through a glass darkly, but then face to face:  now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.”  In the past few days of journaling to The Holy Spirit He is helping me to see my own spirit–not darkly, but in the Light of Truth.  It is new and it is clean and pure.  It is even loving.  I write this with tears welling up inside of me for my gratitude and thanks is huge for this gift I’ve had for so long and now I’m finally able to receive it in truth and love.  Thank you Father!