I wrote yesterday about staying very busy all day on Wednesday so I’d not fret about the delivery of my testimony.  I thanked God for that and thought the work of it was done.  I was totally unprepared for any attacks yesterday from Satan called temptations or false beliefs.  I was emotionally spent yesterday morning as I’d stated.  I went to the last day of the training and did what I felt God wanted me to do–listen well and only respond as I felt nudged.  This I did.  As I got home I was grateful for a little quiet time to sit down before I went to a lengthy quartet practice.  I love these practices, but I was overly tired.  As I sat down I found myself being hugely tempted.  I hadn’t felt anything like this for many days and it seemed to come from nowhere.  I was then glad I needed to go to a quartet practice so it would take my mind off of this.

This morning I brought this temptation to God asking what this was all about?  He guided me through some things I need to know and do.  I’ve learned well how to prepare for the delivery of a tough situation.  What I haven’t done at all is prepare myself for the aftermath.  I wrote about all the rawness I’m awake to and the Light of God shining into the darkness.  None of this happens without a great deal of energy being spent.  The emotional energy drains us physically.  Yesterday I was drained.  So did I ask God to strengthen me?  Did I let any accountability people know?  No, I didn’t do either.  This Sunday a small group of us in Celebrate Recovery leadership is meeting to build a tool I’ve already created but not tried out.  It is a form to address preventing relapse.  In this morning’s guidance God was showing me how last night’s triggers and temptations can be my perfect moment to use in addressing this form with my accountability.  This is how we will field test the form for thoroughness.  God says He uses all things to His Glory.  This is no exception.  When we allow Him to be always in the lead of our life, He will do just that–LEAD.  Thank You Father!