God has been very clear this morning with His message for the day. Today is to be a day for soul cleansing. As I was in counsel yesterday with a client, we were tackling a time in her life many years ago which left deep rooted scars never acknowledged at the time. She is now a widow and needs to uproot the damage. The work God did for me through my own counseling has been very helpful in assisting His work with this lady.
Yesterday afternoon I found myself being tempted to step into the sin of viewing porn. I’ve hated this addictive desire but roots seem to still be there. As I was journaling earlier I asked God to go deeply into my soul and address once and for all the roots of seed planted from the sin acts done to me so long ago for (even though it seems sick to write this) this is what the temptation was about. My devotional addressed the topic of soul cleansing and then in my bible reading I read in Psalms 35:1-5: Plead my cause, O Lord, with those who strive with me; Fight against those who fight against me. Take hold of shield and buckler, and stand up for my help. also draw out the spear, and stop those who pursue me. Say to my soul, “I am your salvation.”
In the 90 day book I’m doing presently, the topic today was performing the surgery God waits to do for soul cleansing. I am so humbled and now ready to trust God for this. I can’t begin to put into words all that this means to me. But, what I feared for most of my life, God does for His Glory and never for my shame. How merciful and loving our Father God is!