This morning I’ve had a message driving itself home to me. While I was doing my devotions I had a number of things on my mind needing done. Once I’d finished my devotions and prayer time I went over my lesson today for the men’s step study we do for Celebrate Recovery. Then, following that I did a lesson in Experiencing God. Both of these lessons were about being obedient to God. The portion that really was standing out to me was the part about how we limit God’s work in our life by the belief we have in Him. How much faith do I actually have that God can and will do great things through me if I will simply obey no matter the size of the task?
I must say that this was very eye-opening for me. I needed to walk through my life listing times I obeyed with faith and those times I disobeyed for lack of faith. Each time I have disobeyed it was solely due to my belief in who I thought I was and what I thought others would think if they found out who I really am (with the past I have). Now for the first time I am seeing the full extent of what God is asking of me when he says to “take up your cross and follow Me,” Luke 9:23. My cross was certainly my belief or lack thereof. I was completely unwilling to take my past and follow Christ. I had to stay in denial about the hurt of my past in order to do anything for Christ. For in my mind, my past would eliminate my doing anything for Him.
Today God is wanting this totally gone. A couple days ago in my devotions Joyce Myers states that “out of your heart will flow rivers of living water” John 7:25-29. In this I now see that as I begin to fully obey Christ’s leading in my life, The Holy Spirit will have full opportunity to flow out of me. Joyce said that our past places stones blocking this flow. I can easily state many of these stones but what I want to do today is admit these stones blockages and let The Holy Spirit remove them so He has full access to me and I show this by obeying all He asks of me. In so doing, He can flow out of me freely. Praise God from Whom all blessings flow!