I don’t know how many readers of this blog have seen “I Can Only Imagine” in the theatres, but if you haven’t, it is well worth the time and effort. Also, if you have a past of hurt from abuse and the shame which follows, it will be painful, but richly insightful. There was a line in the movie that I must have repeated 15 times in my head as soon as I heard it. Of course this morning I can only give my version of it, but it was something like this, “embrace the pain of your past as a motivation from God to help others overcome their own.” I think I said last week that when I gave my testimony to our Celebrate Recovery group last Wednesday, I stayed in tune to it for the entire delivery. In the painfulness of telling it, my brain would simply block my memory so I couldn’t recall the details. I’d go into a shock type mode where I’d read what was on the paper, but I had no recollection of doing so afterwards. This behavior is now gone. I also stayed in tune during the share group time following it. It has taken me 9 years of CR to do this, but it is now possible. I was ready to hear this statement last night and actually put this to work for God’s Kingdom.
Yesterday’s class was an excellent one. There were five men who went deeply into our recovery needs divulging our most vulnerable areas so that our accountability can be very accurate in talking to one another. I am talking about the Relapse Prevention Plan. I had developed the follow-up form for the sponsor to complete which states scripture promises God has given us in the area, and what our roles look like for each category. Every one of the guys think this shouldn’t just be used with our step studies concluding them, but it should be used with any one interested in stopping an intense habit or addiction that owns them whether they’ve attended CR or not. The work of it may or may not lead them to Celebrate Recovery. The purpose is always to lead them to the Power of the Cross and Christ’s work there for each one of us. To God be the Glory–great things He has done and will do with each of us as we surrender to Him and relinquish all control to Him.