As I’ve already written in previous blogs, I’m reading Judges right now in my scripture time during devotions. Today’s entire reading was God calling Gideon to tackle the heckling problems of the Midianites. I already knew Gideon had a fear issue because I’ve not only read it before, but heard many sermons built on this topic. Gideon didn’t let the fear stop the outcome of God’s Work, but he did need much reassurance before fully stepping into the fire.
I find it interesting that God called Gideon to lead the Israelites even calling him “a mighty man of courage.” (Judges 6:12) This comes out in the verses preceding Gideon needing the continual reassurances God is with Him in what He keeps designing for him to do. When Gideon begins to obey God’s calling, he first does his work at night so men don’t know it is him. Then, he asks God to give him the fleeces indicating God is fully in control of what He is asking him to do. Lastly, before he leads the attack on the Midianites, he goes into the camp to overhear what they are saying. In all of this he finds the confidence to move forward with God’s direction for him.
As I read this I begin to think like others have said, “Wow, he does struggle with fear.” However, from the beginning God called him a man of courage. Today, as I write this my gut is tight and my stomach is churning. All my life I’ve struggled with this same fear. God has asked me for many years to step into what I’m now doing. Along with this, he has been opening doors for others to join in and He has also provided several insights of the same work going on all around–I just didn’t know it yet.
I think the most touching thing about this entire story is found in Judges 6:34. It reads: “But the Spirit of the Lord clothed Gideon with Himself and took possession of him….” Talk about the intimacy of God–He clothed Gideon with His own Spirit. This is what God does for us when we accept Christ into our hearts except He doesn’t clothe us with Him, He actually places His Holy Spirit within us. As we obey God’s calling, we allow The Holy Spirit to have the freedom God wants in using us for His Kingdom Work. This is what I want to do. God has been most gracious and patient getting me to this point in my life.