Today we will leave Leavenworth after having had a wonderful opportunity to breath easy with much laughter and enjoyment with friends and new acquaintances. I’m always amazed finding after the fact that I did need the break and how God uses these times to get me better connected to Him and His heart.
In my scripture reading this morning I read Psalms 51. In it David is repenting of his sin with Bathsheba and the death of her husband to gratify his lust. He asks God to create in him a clean heart and to renew a right spirit within him. This message is one we have likely heard a number of times over the years. There is even a song I’ve sung many times written from these verses. The striking verse for this morning was the one which follows David’s repentant heart. It is verse 13. It reads: “Then will I teach transgressors Your ways, and sinners shall be converted and return to You.”
When David wrote this Psalm he had been confronted by Nathan the prophet. It was a year after the sin had been committed. It took a parable to get David to restore his sensitivity to his own sin. When he did he repented. This morning God was impressing upon me that as we begin our recovery classes this fall there will be people coming who will need to restore their relationship with Him. There may also be those who have yet to find a relationship with God. No matter what their position with God, God is waiting to restore unto them the joy of salvation and to have a right spirit within. None of us fully recover from our sins or our past without this right relationship with God
It has taken me all these years for God to get me to the place of verse 13 where I will teach transgressors of God’s ways relating to the sin in their lives, to find the strength to fully disclose my past of abuse and my own sin. For David it took a year and a confrontation from God’s prophet. For me it took my wife, a dear friend at work and another leader in Celebrate Recovery for me to be able to fully disclose all the bondage I had hidden. Even then it took several years of counseling and therapy. I now know it is not about the amount of time, it is about the full disclosure and then the willingness to complete verse 13–“then will I teach transgressors Your ways….” This is the desire of my heart now that I am fully surrendered to use all of me for Christ’s purposes. I now know “the right spirit” which God has restored in me. Thank you so much Father!