Today is not different than yesterday in that I am consumed with this realization that man is totally selfish. Selfishness put into action becomes a sin. It robs us of the joy God is waiting for us to find from being obedient to Him and discovering the fruits of obedience. When I am selfish God simply waits for me to stumble and awaken to the fact I am much better off when I am responding to Him rather than to my own selfishness.
The bible defines the fruit of the Spirit in Galatians 5:22-23. I’m noting this morning that the fruit of obedience for us is completing what the Spirit of God is nudging us to complete. For me this doesn’t just mean what I “do” (that part is much more natural for me for I enjoy doing). The part that will take time is “being” (that part is much more difficult). Being silent and waiting, being patient when there are things to get done when the timing of them is not up to me, etc. These things I tend to push through to get to completion only to find there is then no joy in completing them. People are frustrated and sometimes mad that they were made to complete something they felt was irrelevant.
This morning I wrote in my journal that I want to join God’s selfishness. God is balanced in all ways. His selfishness is never what ours is–something only done to gratify me. Even when God tells us to worship Him, in so doing, it completes a need in us. His selfishness is not just about Him but about Him and us. This need is recognizing that I am incomplete in and of myself. When I worship God I am letting Him know I love Him for completing in me what I cannot do for myself.
I have so much to learn in this area. I’m sure God will be teaching me here and opening my eyes to so much more in the days, weeks, years ahead. For now, I am grateful to be awakening to being a much greater servant for our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and responding to His Gift–The Holy Spirit which He gave to me and to each of us when we invited Him to live in our heart.