Yesterday’s work with the school was more perplexing than fun as I’d said in yesterday’s blog. Yes, I do enjoy classroom observations, but it reminded me to pause on doing too much analysis from one visit. There are so many elements which come into play in putting a lesson together and then teaching it. I’ll want to spend more time before I should jump into any analysis. Plus, all of this needs to directly involve the teachers and their new admin. Just like the principal, only one of the teachers has been there for any length of time. Everyone else acquired the learning gap the district has. I know God has a plan for this and right now I strongly sense Him saying to get better acquainted before jumping into too much “telling”.
The uneasiness of having things to do but not being sure how to address them was hitting me hard last night. The Christmas program rehearsals have begun. Even though I don’t have a major role, there are still several songs to memorize. I’m also asked to sing a solo with our choir in a few weeks which also requires memorization. These added to yesterdays complexity and then today meeting with a Celebrate Recovery man who is troubled and wants to talk, I woke in the middle of the night unable to sleep. I felt anxious and unable to handle what is on the plate. Even though I attempted to “let them go” I kept hanging onto them. This morning as I journaled about all of this God simply reminded me these are His items and my assignments for doing my part. He never gives us more than we can handle. He is always with us. Satan does have a hay day at moments like last night. However, this morning I am reminded of who is ultimately in control. It isn’t as though I don’t have 68 years of experiencing God win out. Satan wants me to believe all the lies he plants in my mind or that my “old-self mind” wants to conger up.
Today I’m a new creation and going to live in this belief I know is true. In this there is great freedom. I choose to be free as Christ has set me free!