I wouldn’t have thought when I wrote my autobiography 3 years ago that I’d be writing what I’m about to write. However, in the recent lessons on shame and the one I mentioned for this week, I can feel the grip–bondage which still exists in me. The counselor and I talked about this after class last Tuesday and yesterday I called him and I’m going in this morning to address what I wasn’t ready to address all those years ago. The therapy of EMDR is what the counselor will use. I’m well acquainted with it as I’ve had 2+ years of it before.
Somehow, being OK has always been very important to me. For a long time being OK is what I wanted the world to see in me and so I kept my past hidden. Well, the emotional infection was oozing out way back in my late 30’s when I went for the first time. Then, when I went again in my late 50’s the wounds were open–most of them. Today I want to open the last of them with the counselor’s help. God has been very faithful in helping me see this need. How much I do love HIM!