“Be still my soul the Lord is on my side. Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain. Leave to thy God to order and provide. In every change He faithful will remain. Be still my soul, thy best, thy heavenly Friend, through thorny ways lead to a joyful end.” The last two Wednesday nights have had tremendous burdens in them. As I was asking God this morning what He wanted me to know from Him, these words were given to me.
My devotional this morning was reminding me that God is for me, Christ is with me and The Holy Spirit is in me. I asked myself, “what more could I want?” In reality, I want the trauma of some loved ones to end. I want peace and harmony. I want forgiveness and understanding to prevail. Life teaches us (me) that none of this comes without great human cost–selfishness, pride, will, all stand in the way.
I have wanted the sufferings of my past and the lessons I’ve learned from it to compensate for my loved ones so none of them have to endure the price of sin. It doesn’t happen that way–I know; I just don’t want to know it. “Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.”
I have come to God all my life presenting a person (me) who has tried to achieve being someone better than his past. God has wanted me to present a person with a past so He can give me a life with a future so we achieve together. I’m so grateful for His patient endurance with me. Now I kneel before Him praying for some loved ones who will will someday know to do the same.