Temptations truly are a part of daily living. I have said in times past that I loathed temptations. My sexual abuse was the result of me being the victim of my brother’s temptations. My verbal and physical abuse was the result of me being one of the victims of my dad’s yielding to his temptations during anger and pride fits. My emotional support which I never got from mom was a result of her fears and not knowing what to do except pray. Anytime I felt the emotions which seemed to resemble dad I thought that made me like him. Anytime I had sexual temptations I thought that made me like my brother. Now, all these years later I’m finally at a point where my temptations are seen as part of my daily life. I don’t mean to minimize them, but I do want a reader to know that they don’t own me and your temptations don’t need to own you if you struggle as I have.
“No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” I Corinthians 10:13. For years and years I wondered how this promise was true? It was one of the promises of scripture which fed my belief that I wasn’t worth much to God or He would have made this scripture true for me. What I didn’t know until more recently just how much God was protecting me so I could “bear it”. My being abused wasn’t my temptation–it was another’s temptation which they were acting upon. Man caused the abuse but God gave a way for me to bear it. Now God is giving me the freedom to know that it doesn’t own me anymore. Isn’t God AMAZING? How much I love Him.