The resolution I set for this year to live each day as a new creation keeping God in the center of my day 24/7 is revealing so much I hadn’t wanted to believe about myself. I felt God prompting me to set this goal. Little did I know in order to have Him in the center of my day 24/7 I’d need to get myself out of the way. I sure didn’t realize how much Earnie was restricting God’s leadership in my life. The things about me which were in the way were weaknesses too–things like fear, anxiety, and lack of trust and belief. Scripture is very clear regarding all of these as sinful. I was using them as boundaries for what I do/did.
Stepping into this new venture of counseling has triggered a host of these weaknesses wanting to stop this. However, God has been relentless in helping me see what has hindered me from relying on Him so that I can more fully keep Him in the center of my life each and every day.
As I was journaling this morning and asked Jesus what He wanted me to know from Him for today, He said He wanted me to not be discouraged about moving forward. Instead, He wanted me to be encouraged. When I wrote this I realized for the first time that “courage” is the root word for these two words. All of these years I’ve let fear and anxiety overtake the courage God wanted me to have by Trusting in Him. It’s a big lesson I want to make permanent in my daily living.