Today I can’t help but focus for a minute on this journey. It was four years ago that God had me write my autobiography which was released for distribution in August, 2015. When I was told I’d be the main person promoting this work I panicked! I certainly didn’t write this book to promote it, yet now, 4 years later, I can see what God was meaning. I am no longer afraid to promote this fact that I’ve published my story. It isn’t just mine. It is a story of God’s Work in my life throughout all of it, starting when I didn’t even know He cared for me and lasting throughout my lifetime.
This morning I’ve been seeking God’s direction and leadership as we approach our big weekend of Sept. 14 & 15 with Christopher Yuan and his parents. I’ve had several contacts of late for this readiness and I have a meeting tomorrow afternoon with some at our church for this preparation. I tremble inside when these times comes knowing there are a host of details to address and I don’t want any left undone or unattended. In this case I am not doing most of the details for they are turned over to our church staff and I do trust them.
The biggest thing of this morning for me took place as I was journaling. In it I asked Jesus what He wanted me to know and believe for today? His response touched me to my core. He said, “know I AM with you always even to the end of the age.” Matthew 28:20. It was then He added something which touched my heart. He said, “I believe in you.” Do you know what it is like to have your father believe in you? I never felt this–ever, from my earthly father. However, today, Jesus said He believes in me. I hope this doesn’t sound “over the top,” but, it was one of the most humbling and empowering statements I’ve ever had given to me. It strengthens my own belief tremendously because first and foremost, Jesus believes in me–us. We were created for God’s purposes and now we get to carry them out knowing God believes in us. What a loving, wonderful Father we get to serve!