God has really been speaking to me about hearing His Voice. Separating HIs Voice from the voices of man, the voices heard in my head, and the voices of emotions. No matter what is going on in our day, we have nudges to respond to them and God is wanting me to better hear Him in all of this. In my devotions this morning He was speaking to me about this as I journaled, then as I read my devotional the message was there.

As I began my bible reading in Psalms, David was confessing his sins about Bathsheba and the death of her husband. This is in Psalms 51 and in verse 6 it says: “Behold, You desire truth in the inner being; make me therefore to know wisdom in my inmost heart.” As I read this and then read an insert Joyce Meyers wrote, I was prompted to look at the distinction of what God desires–TRUTH in our inner being–my heart. It is one thing to do something outwardly and desire something else on the inside. God wants my inner self to desire Him and what I do on the outside to model this.

The 3-R’s I’ve written about came to mind in all of this. I can recognize the desire to please selfishness, I can reject it, but replacing it was my question to Jesus this morning. He said to replace it with a desire for Him. I can use yesterday’s message to do this: “God (my heavenly Dad) has said to have no other gods before me, so I replace this evil desire with His Son–Jesus and a desire to yearn for Him, to be like Him.” Just writing this makes my heart smile and tears come to my eyes.

“God has said,” This was the title and start of my devotional reading this morning. Charles Spurgeon, author, had written about the importance of these three words and I loved it. God has done so much in the past couple years to remove any stigma I’ve had about Him being anything like my own father. So, as I read these three words this morning I was prompted to remove the word God and replace it with Dad–my Heavenly Father. Just fathom for a minute confronting any ill thought, any temptation, any judgmental thought, any poor me idea with the statement: “God has said….” For me, I wanted to say, “Dad has said.”

For much of my adult life I’ve heard speakers talk about God as our Heavenly Dad. Every time I heard this I cringed. There was no way I’d ever think of God has my dad. However, as I’ve already said, God has done so much to separate my memories of my earthly dad from those of God Himself. In doing so I can easily think of God as my Heavenly Dad and I can now think far more forgivingly about my own dad.

The Bible is filled with our Heavenly Dad’s Voice with wisdom and leadership for all of His children. I just want to start thinking, “Dad has said we can’t do that. It won’t be good for us.” “I don’t want to say that, it will only hurt them and not help them.” I could add a long list of these here. The point is that I truly want to be the son of my Heavenly Dad who uses His Wisdom to live my life and help others with their own as Dad nudges or they might ask.

This morning is the funeral service for a lady who was married to my nephew for, I believe, 23 years. They had two daughters together and there is one older brother. I was asked by one of the grandnieces to read a couple of things at the service for them (scripture and poem). They knew they couldn’t get through them so they asked if I’d be willing and of course I said yes. The nephew who was married to her is only a couple years younger than me so we had grown up together almost as cousins. God’s presence is always one of healing. It is simply a part of God so if we are in His Presence and we allow ourselves to take in God’s Presence, healing can happen. There is this need today. I hadn’t known this, but there are some rough edges still in the family which God, I know, would love to heal. This is my prayer today.

When I get home today my brothers and their wives will be at our home. We are hosting the monthly get-together. I had a text from my niece in California with a picture of our oldest living sis taken yesterday morning when my niece was with her. My sis is struggling with dementia, but yesterday she was bright. The picture looked so much like my mom that I had to catch my breath for a moment. My sis wanted my niece to send the picture to us so we could see she is doing fine!

My family has had many times when God’s Presence brought healing. I have witnessed many, many of them. Today, I pray for another one of these moments when God’s Rich Presence softens hearts and souls to see Him and let Him do His Miraculous Healing starting this morning.

I have truly been amazed this week watching God work. The lesson for last night’s Celebrate Recovery really challenged those present to not only pray about what is on their minds which brought them to CR, but also to obey what God is nudging them to do. The story I said I’d read was a perfect fit for the lesson. In share group time the men were seemingly challenged to open their hearts to God and trust Him rather than make excuses why they wouldn’t be obedient to a nudge from God.

I’ve needed wisdom in knowing how to work with a couple situations in the school districts for which I spend time. Yesterday was one of those days. We needed to tackle a couple of issues which turned out extremely well. Not only was the problem able to be discussed, but a solid plan of action was developed. I do love watching God work.

One of our men who came last night to CR was one who had come for a couple years, but then dropped out. In coming last night he shared why he had dropped out. It is so easy to get our eyes off of God and to measure any progress from what we see in others. We will even judge ourselves and others in so doing. How amazing God is and how faithful He is at relentlessly bringing us back to the points in our lives we didn’t want to see the first times He brought us to them.

The song we sang last night right before our lesson was, “Open the Eyes of My Heart Lord” I want to see you. That was the start of the lesson. We ended the lesson with the statement, “open the eyes of my heart Lord, I not only want to see you, but then I want to obey You”. Pray and Obey, that is God’s challenge for each of us as we walk with Him each and every day.

I said yesterday that tonight I teach Spiritual Inventory Part II for the Celebrate Recovery group. I had said that two weeks ago we addressed the negatives in our lives in the Part I lesson. I also said that in tonight’s lesson we would address the positives. Well, the positives are only positive if we obey the necessary steps we are to take.

I’ve been looking for a good story to read along with this lesson. I just hadn’t been able to find one. There is the story of Zachariah which I mentioned yesterday. However, it didn’t seem to fit so last night I’d decided I’d teach the lesson without a story. This morning the Light was given. As I had my Bible reading in the Psalms Joyce Meyers tells a story from her own experiences. It fits like a glove. It is all about Pray and Obey.

This may be true for all people, but for the ones who come to Celebrate Recovery, we pray for God to intervene in whatever brought us. However, obey what we need to do? Well, that may or may not happen. We don’t want to take a step of faith into an area where hurt has been the only experience we’ve known. God is asking us to Pray and Obey. It is the only way we can learn to build our Trust/Faith in Him.

I have needed to take these steps of obedience many times as I’ve addressed my personal recovery. There have been many times I’ve prayed but instead of obeying, I thought the steps I needed to take were too tough or just not needed. I’d recover to the degree I was willing. In God’s faithfulness He didn’t let me stay there and I’m so grateful! I think I’m now ready to teach tonight’s lesson.

About three years ago I began to read Watchman Nee’s book, The Spiritual Man. He said in it that we can know the voice of God through our intuition. He does a nice job separating our emotions from intuition. I’ve been preparing to teach Celebrate Recovery’s lesson tomorrow night on Spiritual Inventory–Part II.

Two weeks ago I taught Part I which addressed the negatives in our life. Tomorrow’s lesson will go into who God made us to be–the positives. As I’ve been grappling with man’s emotions in the Psalms, I’ve been pondering about the gift of intuition God gave man in order to separate His Voice from man’s voice in our emotions. God’s Voice is almost always “a still small voice” which our emotions cloud and hide if we don’t stop long enough to quiet them so we can hear God. The gifts God gives us can be buried in our selfishness and unbelief’s if we aren’t careful.

The Celebrate Recovery bible takes the story of Zechariah as one who didn’t believe God’s message to him through Gabriel the Archangel. Zechariah doubted the message and he became mute. God asks us to take His message/s to us on Faith/Trust. In so doing we show our confidence in the God we say we serve no matter what God is telling us or saying to us.

It has taken me a long time to get to this place in my personal life. I could easily trust God for you, but my past and the emotional voices in my head often kept me from believing the promises God wanted me to know and believe. Today, most of them have been Recognized, Rebuked and Replaced with Self: love, appreciation and confidence. However, if I’m not careful I have a moment like last Sunday morning which I wrote about. The turn around time is faster today, but I want to be a man who doesn’t question God, but tells Him, Yes, I want to follow your lead as I hear Your Voice and never question it.

I’m writing this as I sit for 15 minutes following my second immunization. I am so glad to be able to have this completed. God is good.

I wrote as I started reading Psalms that I have never enjoyed reading them the way I appreciate them now. The emotional expressions are continuous as I had always resented. However now as I read them I’m awake to the truth that man is a highly emotional being and I’ve just been in denial to it. The funny thing is that my own frustration of it has been my personal emotional response!

I love being in a place where I can appreciate much more who man is and more importantly, who our God is who created us.

The blessings of yesterday were truly nice. The recognition given to Celebrate Recovery in both services was deeply appreciated by everyone and it seems the congregation also appreciated it as well.

I go to one of the schools today even though it is President’s Day. They are a 4 day school week so they honor the holidays on the Friday’s rather than the Monday’s. I’m delaying my start due to all of the snow we are getting. It is to be done by mid-morning so I’ll head out then. The roads will be plowed by then.

Today the Psalms are filled with Glory and Honor due to God our Father, Christ our King (even though men did not know about Christ at the time of their writing). I told the men in our step study yesterday morning that reading the Bible with the mindset that God’s Voice is the one I hear as the words are read, gives me a whole new perspective. God is praising Himself and He is telling me I can praise Him too. He delights in our praise of Him. God doesn’t personally struggle with arrogance and conceit like man does. He simply receives praise as our recognition of His Genuine Love, Grace and Mercy. He asks us to live this way. I have much to learn here but I know I’m on the right road.

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY! Yesterday’s marriage focus our church sponsored was a real treat. We loved it and it spoke in many important ways to us as well as to everyone who attended. The beauty of it was seeing that it was all put together by our younger, middle age couples.

Today I’ve needed to face a demon as my journey continues. A few weeks ago our pastor who oversees our Celebrate Recovery ministry told me the church was going to honor CR in the worship services today. He wanted me to know so I could make sure the leadership attended both services. I thought this was a nice idea and thanked him for doing this. As the day has been approaching I’ve needed to squelch my desire to take control of the way we will be “praised”/”thanked”. Finally, this morning when I couldn’t sleep I got up and asked God what I was missing here and why I couldn’t seem to just be appreciative of this? (The voices scream in my mind). As only God’s Holy Spirit can do, while I’ve had my devotional time, He has gently guided me through some tough, intense critical memories of my childhood years. In those years the absence of criticism was praise. I also learned to deflect any type of praise because I’d learned well that I wasn’t worthy of it.

As I have spent the last 1.5 hours working through this I’ve needed to go through the 3-R’s: Recognize, Reject and Replace. It was easy to recognize the lies and to reject them. As I asked God what I should replace it with He reminded me to replace it with TRUST. He asked me to take my eyes off of my past and to look up to my heavenly DAD. It is there I can easily trust and find gratitude. The desire to take control of this morning’s praise is now gone. I’m ready to go and receive whatever is being done. How much I love our Heavenly DAD! He loves praise and He wants us to know we can love it too.

I wrote yesterday about the concerns I had for the day and what was to take place. I praised God (finally) after He reminded me of this need. The day took place as though there were no hitches in it at all. All my concerns were for naught. Praise God! The incredible thing is that there were a couple of unexpected praises which took place in the day I had no idea would happen. God is so good! Praising Him is truly man’s expression of TRUST in HIM!

The snow keeps coming! What was 3-4″ yesterday is now about 7 and it is still snowing as I write. I had to go outside since it is too dark yet to see from the inside. I’m a happy farm boy seeing this summer irrigation falling.

Today Kathy and I are attending a marriage day our church is sponsoring. I have no idea what to expect, except we will spend time I’m sure focusing on God and our relationship. I’m sure this will help her!! Ha! Ha! Everyone knows I am the one needing this! It might seem a little odd having the day while we “social distance”! In all seriousness I am looking forward to it. It is going to be a great day!