As I begin today I want to call it the start of the new journey. Yes, it is a continuation of my life’s journey, but it is also the first time I’ve started something new committed to believing and knowing it is a “new creation” who is doing it. All through my years in education’s employment I was one in hiding. Through the past 15 years of consulting and working with recovery ministries I’ve grown through the time of hiding into full disclosure–but, I was still owned (I thought) by the debt of sin done to me and that which I’d done. Today, as I begin this week, with only the counseling before me, I go into it knowing the past no longer owns me. It is my past. The memories of it are used for ministry purposes. I am still the person I was and have been, but I know a freedom promised to me I’ve not known before.
As I awoke this morning and even as I went to bed last night I was sensing a responsibility far beyond my capability to accomplish. Getting a counseling program up and running and equipping myself to “be a counselor”? What in the world was I thinking saying yes to this? This type of thinking has been part of me for as long as I’ve lived. I realize now it is not connected to anything other than my human makeup. I committed it to Jesus last night and I’ve done so again this morning.
My devotional’s message today read the following in part: “Take my promises today and possess all that I give to you. The promises I gave to Joshua are promises that I give to you. Step out in faith and put your feet upon my promises. Claim them as your own. Do not be timid or shrink back when you are surrounded by your giants, but see your giants as opportunities for my power and might to win your battles. Many see the giants and hide in fear, but I have called you to hide in me and my promises….”
Happy Father’s Day! I love the quiet of the mornings. I hear the birds outside and see the beginning of the sun’s morning light. This makes Father’s Day start with a smile. After all of the prep for my grandson’s party yesterday, and enjoying the day with him and all who came, I’m greatly enjoying this morning’s solitude for a short while. The details God reminded me yesterday to give to Him were all in place. Why I don’t remember this ahead of time is another one of those human flaws.
Our God is Amazing. I use this word often, I know. However, it is the first one that comes to mind when I write about God. As I was journaling this morning earlier I wished Him a Happy Father’s Day, however, I addressed it to my Abba Father–He is everything powerful, but yet, He is Daddy too in love and compassion. How grateful I am to be one of His kids.
Today is my grandson’s graduation party at our home. As I began to journal in starting my devotions, I knew I was a little anxious that all the details making his party special were in place. Then, I asked my question of Jesus wanting to know what He wanted me to see for today–His instant response was to look beyond silly details so I could see the rewards of the day. Enjoying the ones who come to celebrate Hayden is the biggest priority of the day. It is so easy to lose sight of this. Then, as I opened my devotional, the title for today was: “Take a Vacation from Worry Today”. My word, God is the God of infinite detail and He wants me to recognize this and simply do my part allowing me to also enjoy the purpose of today. How often I forget this.
The second thing I noticed from today’s devotions was brought out from my reading in I Corinthians 3, which had a subheading: “A Call to Spiritual Maturity”. Paul is calling the believers of Corinth to accountability for the factions they had dividing them. Our Celebrate Recovery group is always looking for leadership help. One of the first things we know to look for is sobriety in at least one area of one’s life. My own was the commitment to keep my need for recovery from my past’s hurts in front of me and not jumping into “denial” as soon as I walked away from the CR meeting. The next big important piece for leadership is seeing oneself as a part of a bigger whole rather than seeing oneself only. Paul was helping the Corinthians notice how their factions were dividing them. God wants us working together appreciating one another’s strengths and working with them. As I read all of this I thought this is a good next training for our group. We always need to become more mature in our walk with Christ and His Spirit within us.
God’s lessons for living each day are ever before us and even within us as we awaken more and more to His Spirit living within. I love this reality!
Yesterday’s graduation for my grandson was a time to cherish. I had forgotten that this would be his high school’s first graduating class. It is a new charter Jr/Sr High School so Hayden’s class was first to graduate. A group of about 80 students. The facility used to host the graduation held 1500 people and there was standing room only. It seemed every parent, grandparent, friend and relative was present. The people sitting behind me asked if I remembered them? They had been students of mine 40 years ago. Yes, I remembered them. I was a very proud grandpa. The graduation party will be at our home tomorrow afternoon. I’m doing my “getting the yard ready” today.
I’ve written the past two mornings about my rummy mind. Today it is clear and I have this sense of urgency to get every detail of the counseling program in order! My emotions remind me of starting every school year and what I felt each late summer as I’d head to the office. I know God is wanting me to take a look at this characteristic to find His Spirit’s leadership. I truly want to take each step in God’s timing and not from my emotional state. I don’t think this sense is necessarily wrong, but I do know for sure that it is wrong if I don’t bring each step before God to anchor it in God’s Light/Wisdom. This level of patience with a project is new for me but I know it is the right lesson God wants me learning at this time in my life. I humbly thank God for this opportunity to begin a work for Him as a new creation. Wow, this is AMAZING!
Well, if I thought I was rummy yesterday, it was just because I hadn’t experienced this morning yet. Yesterday was a beautiful day, the weather being perfect. I got yard work done in the morning, ran grandkids around in the early afternoon for their appointments and ended the day getting my lawn mowed and grass clippings delivered to our kid’s goats. By 8:45 last night I couldn’t keep my eyes open so I went to bed. I sure wasn’t expecting to sleep 10 hours, but I did. I can’t remember when I’ve slept that long.
Today is my 2nd grandson’s graduation. He has been my buddy since birth. He is the one who was a childhood cowboy. Every year I’d take him to the local rodeo where his eyes wouldn’t leave the arena and the events taking place in it. When he was about 10, he told me when he was older he would take me to the rodeo rather than me always taking him. He said, “I will pay for everything just like you do.” Well, today he graduates. He is a gift.
I found it interesting that today’s devotional message was–to be Kind. Kindness is one of the Fruits of God’s Spirit. I am overly focused in my mind trying to get myself equipped for the counseling next step. Yet, God is wanting me to not forget to first live in His Spirit and reflect His Spirit’s leading. Kindness has been at the forefront of God’s Work all along. I don’t want to step ahead of it either, but to live within it so I too reflect it.
The journey of today starts with a rather rummy head! Yesterday’s closure to the work in Montana ended well. The legs of flight home were good and on time. The weather patterns we flew through did allow for some roller coaster experiences, but I sort of enjoy them. This morning however, getting to bed at 1:00 am, has me knowing I may be done with 50 years of educational service, but I best wait a day to let my head clear before stepping into the next leg of life.
I do need to say that what I sense most of all is gratitude. When my educational years began in 1972 I was a very young man in hiding. No one knew I was hiding except for me. Satan had me in a tight grip of fear and shame. I look at what God has done “one day at a time, one moment at a time, taking hardship and turning it into a pathway to peace” (excerpt from The Serenity Prayer) and just shake my head. How God takes a path of hiding and turns it into a path of LIGHT and service is just one of His Mighty Miracles. I love Him for this!
As my day began yesterday I received a message from my wife saying our oldest granddaughter had gotten engaged. She is with her boyfriend’s family in Hawaii. The now fiance asked her the question while they were on the beach having family pictures. It is a very lovely little video clip. Last night my granddaughter called me to tell me about this. We rejoiced together!
Today will complete the work in Montana and end my 50 years of service to education. There has been enough time to allow the processing of this ending so that I can conclude it with a real sense of peace–no regrets! I look forward to this next adventure God has already started. I will now be able to focus all of my attention on it rather than splitting the time which I am not as good at doing.
God is all about relationships and He had created man to be likewise. This message was seen by me several times yesterday as I had my meeting last night with the school superintendent. Throughout my monthly visits here this past year I’ve reminded this man (who is an active follower of God) to step out and talk with his admin team about his vision for the district and each of their schools. He is new to this role and most of his admin team are new to theirs. On my last visit in April I had pressed this message. I was amazed as I listened to him last night and read the work they had done since April. They now have a vision which was built by a team of the staff, they have goals which can be used by teachers to better focus their efforts to teach and accomplish student learning, etc.
In doing this work as a team, the superintendent talked openly about how the relationships had grown with his admin. They have begun to call him with ideas they want to share and he himself is amazed at what has caused this to come around so well. I will be working with each of these building teams today and tomorrow. We will be setting goals which align with the new district ones and will then be used by their staff as they start their new year in the fall.
I knew this was my last trip here, little did I expect to see such accomplishment. This had been my goal but I could hardly see it coming together after my April visit. Yet, here it is–ready to be put in place. It all started by trusting relationships to create what motivates and aligns. Isn’t this exactly what God does for each of us as we give Him the opportunity to lead us each and every day?
In a short while I’ll be flying for my last time to Montana completing the work there with the school district. Tonight I’ll meet briefly with the superintendent and then tomorrow and Tuesday I’ll wrap up the work with each of the schools and close out with one last superintendent mtg. This will end the school consulting work. When I return I’ll be free to devote my time completely to the counseling. Only a few months ago I could hardly see myself in this role. But, today, I look forward to this new venture with God. What a privilege He has given to me.
Yesterday’s devotional time played itself out so nicely. I spent an hour and a half with my prayer warrior in the morning. She has been God’s messenger so often for me. It was joyous to share with her God’s most recent awakening as I shared yesterday’s devotional time. It it weren’t for her, I wouldn’t even know about this devotional I use and this Bible translation. God has gifted me with this wonderful lady and I praise Him for her.
My day ended with my grandson helping me with a couple of grandpa needs and I was able to help him with a couple of closing assignments he had for school. He graduates next Thursday and wasn’t sure how to complete this particular work. We had it all done and he was and I were most pleased with the day’s work.
What a blessed God we get to serve. Every ounce of living goes back to Him once we get our eyes fixed on the truth of living fully committed to His Holy Spirit’s leadership in our lives.
I’ve got to pick up today where yesterday’s message left off. Each part of the day I mentioned in yesterday’s blog was as though God had already set the stage–and He had! This first counseling session was amazing. The fellow who came is one I’ve known many years now so he and I were comfortable with one another. The counselor who is modeling is new to him but his closing remarks to her were confirming. “You really make me feel at ease,” he told her. I learned a good deal just from lesson one!
Today as I began my devotions I knew God was wanting me to know more about full surrender. As I journaled I questioned more boldly about what I needed to do to better understand this step? He was amazingly clear–“The times in a day or in a week where those temptations arise for you to gratify yourself need to be addressed with a statement that turns your faith towards Me not towards your strength to push them away. I have wanted to show you what miracles of gratification I have for you once you trust me enough to take this step.” (I tear up just typing this).
As I began my reading of the devotional and Bible, I could see The Holy Spirit pruning those deep rooted desires which I’ve had no handle on for addressing their depth within me until now. The reading went on to say to clothe myself in Jesus Christ which finally made sense. This dirtiness (ugly temptations) within me could never be clothed with the purity of Jesus Christ. However, seeing within my mind/spirit, The Holy Spirit pruning this away brought the next awakening that allowed Him to then dress me in the purity of Jesus. Isn’t this the most beautiful picture?! This is the person (me) who gets to listen, talk, and counsel with those who want to find this same freedom which they, like I, never thought possible for them.
God’s loving persistence and His Grace, coupled with Jesus Christ and The Holy Spirit are so AMAZING!
Earnie Lewis 